Well, not my babies, but my sister’s babies.  Today is Joshua’s second birthday.  I can’t believe he is two years old.  He was born on the day the Colts won the Super Bowl.  A team that deserved it, not like those Steeler schmucks.  But I digress…

(My sister is gonna love me for that one!)

I wish I could be there for his birthday.  I just want to hold him, just for a second.  Joshua loves to show me things over the video chat.  Whether its a pencil or whatever he is eating, he holds it up to the camera.  Olivia is always excited to see me over the internet (I think she just enjoys seeing herself on the computer screen), but I just like to think she’s excited to see me.  It was good to see them today, but still all the more harder.

All in all today was frustrating, trying, and unsettling.  I know tommorrow will be better, but for now, I’m not enjoying myself.